mouth bleed and self-abuse (not the good kind)


     They say if you dream that you’re bleeding from your mouth it means you’re doing something that’s bad for you but you keep doing it anyway.  While I’ve never dreamt this specifically it is a very frequent feature in my artwork which is largely unplanned and subject to my unconscious impulses and desires.  I’ve also been actively abusing myself lately in the form of a stupid, competitive, online game which only makes me even more anxious than I already am.  But I keep playing it even though I realize the detrimental way in which it affects me.  Must be a symptom of a deeper disturbance.