Here’s my latest dry erase crap. I refer to this with disdain and hostility because I completed this drawing and then hung the dry erase board back on the wall were I keep it. The overtly cheery and uplifting feel of this drawing started to get to me. Usually, I draw something in my sketchbook and don’t have to look at it right away. When I come back to it later something has changed and I see it differently and it’s more palatable. With Mr. Wavy Brain here I was forced to process it immediately. That, combined with having a pretty crappy week, made for a crushing blow to my psyche yesterday. Once photographed, I didn’t feel much remorse after I erased it.
As for the style and content, this is classic nose bleed, a definite “back to basics” of this new style, as it is similar to the very first drawing from this style/series. I had just cleaned my dry erase board and it was all white and shiny and I could see a blurry reflection of myself in it as I started on this. I even had the conscious thought that this would be a self-portrait. Once finished, I realized what a state I was in and, as days passed, it became a more and more vivid revelation. In some ways it surprised me. I mean, I’ve had a noticeable amount of depression in me since I was a child. I’ve dealt with feelings of depression all my adult life so why did this particular image bother me so much? I guess it was the immediacy of it all. But you know, I’ve heard it said that if everything is under control you’re not going fast enough. As I get older I start to appreciate that opinion more and more.
Finally, to lighten my mood (and hopefully yours), I made another of my goofy animated .gifs. While processing this in Irfanview, I hit the horizontal flip and noticed what you see to the left. When flipped left and right, he seems to do a kind of bizarre, fuzzy fan dance of sorts! Suddenly, this vision of exhaustion and depression turns into more of a scene of drunken, pathetic, playfulness. Admittedly, not MUCH of an improvement but an improvement nonetheless.
Wow, you bothered to read this far? Good for you and thanks for taking an interest!